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Ok, now what? Well, I’ll tell you, actually.

This whole “dating-again” thing has been quite illuminating for me; I had forgotten how many Get to Know You questions are required with someone new.  There are opinions on books, music, movies, travel, school, work, family, food preferences…it’s a lot of opinions!  Throughout this process I have discovered something that I am actually quite excited about: my car accident has a more tangible, significant affect on my current life than my marriage and subsequent divorce.  I’ll say it again, my car accident has a more tangible and significant affect on my current life than my marriage and subsequent divorce.

Yay!

Ok, I’m sure you’re wondering why on earth I am “yay”ing over a horrible car accident.  My life changed drastically when I got married (for the worse) and even more drastically when I finally was free of X.  Those experiences have shaped me into the woman I am, a woman I like, and I would not trade them for anything.  However, my day-to-day life no longer revolves around the hurt and betrayal and loss of innocence.  I am not bitter.  I don’t hate men.  I am healthy.

My car accident, however, still does affect me most days.  I still get stiff and achey, I can’t run like I used to be able to, and as much as I love and adore Roxy, I still wish I was driving Miss Daisy in all her adorable yellowness.  Alright, so car color really isn’t the biggest hurdle post-accident that I have had to get over and deal with.  However in answer questions from new friends this car accident business has come up A LOT!  Much more than I would have expected, in fact.

• I lost my job immediately after my accident, which has translated into 4 jobs in 18 months with 6 or 7 months of unemployment thrown in for good measure.
• I stopped running immediately after my accident, which has led to some unhappy weight gain, loss of muscle tone, and general “I used to run…but now I can’t” angst.
• I actually stopped doing most active things; I’ve kept up with yoga and the physical therapy exercises to make sure my ribs and pelvis stay put, and I’ll go on a walk or something without any problem.  But I won’t sprint up the canyon and I’m afraid to go rock climbing…which sucks.
• I started having health problems, both with my back, neck and pelvis, but also with your general, run-of-the-mill colds and flus.  I’ve never been this sick in my LIFE!
• My big plans to go back to school were put on hold, partly due to the accident but mostly due to the serious job instability and inability to fund tuition, books, and new pencils.  (I love new pencils.)

I feel like I have been stagnant, and am starting to rot.  This is disturbing, naturally.  I don’t want to be the rotty, moldy, molting type of individual; I don’t want to be bitter about this and I feel like I’m heading that direction.  I need a revamp.

In looking over my 2009 Resolutions, as well as The List I have decided that I may not be able to complete either, especially the resolution one.  So I have made the executive decision to finish The List and not sweat the Resolutions too much (TWO half-marathon’s by February?  What was I thinking?!?)

Without further ado, here is The List at it’s current state of partial completeness:

1.  Learn to knit.

2.  Learn to make Thai food.

3.  Read 25 books. (on number 19)

4.  Sew myself a dress (no dress yet, but I have made 2 shirts!)

5.  Organize The Loft.

6.  Start some kind of Emergency Preparedness storage, contribute each month.

7.  Clean off my desk and clean out my office…yikes! (and it’s still clean!)

8.  Make a piece of furniture, something easy, like a bookcase.

9.  Downsize my closet, organize, purge, etc.

10. Find a pair of truly fantastic jeans, purchase in multiples.

11. Make a quilt.

12. Learn Sudoku

13. Make a scarf, a snuggly one in a great color.

14. Learn how to ski.

15. Take a spontaneous road-trip. (Hello, Salt Flats)

16. Learn how to make gnocchi pasta.

17. Photograph, organize and label the rest of my shoes.

18. Makeover my sad, green couch, into something a little more, um, lively.

19. Wear orange successfully somewhere other than my feet. (Scarf and sweater!)

20. And purple.

21. Find or make a truly fantastic Halloween costume.

22. Try canning something like peaches or soup or something, hope for success.

23-25. Paint or refinish my dining table & 10 chairs…this is a BIG project.

….That’s a lot of things to accomplish in the next few months, but I know I can do it.  I’m done rotting and stagnating and I’m ready to begin fresh.  New job, new prospects, new shoes…this is going to be fantastic!

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