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Little Miss Green Eyes and a Whole Lotta Issues

Once upon a time, not so long ago or far away, there was a little girl with bright green eyes, a feisty personality and a whole lotta issues.  She didn’t have a fairy godmother, she didn’t have three magic wishes, and if there was a secret, hidden rich Prince somewhere he did a hell of a job staying hidden.  This little green-eyed girl had to go through her issues on her own.

As she grew up, Miss Green Eyes figured out how to deal with most of her issues, all by herself.  As she got older she came to a point where she almost believed that most of her issues were gone, resolved, or buried so deep they would never surface again.

It is probably no surprise that Miss Green Eyes was wrong.

Buried issues have a tendency to vomit themselves up at the most inopportune times.  Without the proper foresight and medication, that Issue Vomit can end up all over your shoes, and your dress, and your preppy little handbag.  And there’s another kicker, when you really “grow up” and become all responsible and adult-like and everything, you get to deal with other people’s issues as well.  So now in addition to your own Issue Vomit you’ve got Brown Eyes’ Issue Vomit all over your strappy sandals as well.  It’s a real mess.

As Miss Green Eyes looked down at her shoes, she couldn’t tell the difference between her own issues and his issues.  Standing there in a puddle of tears and issues, it occurred to Green Eyes that the only way to unbury and resolve these issues was to get them out in the open, even if it meant ruining a pair of shoes.  And, if you knew Miss Green Eyes at all, you’d know that ruined shoes is a REALLY big deal.

There is no fairy godmother and no magic genie.  All that mess and the only people there to clean it up were Green and Brown Eyes.  In the middle of a discussion on whether or not to bring in the pressure hose and blast all that mess–and any remaining compatibility–into the next block, or into Never Neverland.  Amidst ruined shoes and slippery surfaces, these two people had to make the decision to pick up the pieces, clean up the crap, and make it work.

Here’s the thing about all those buried issues, regardless of how strong or healthy or amazing you think you are, issues that are left buried will start to ferment.  And eventually, there will be Issue Vomit.  And it stinks, in every possible sense of the word.

Back to the story about Little Miss Green Eyes, she is still picking Issues up and either putting them away or letting them go.  It’s a long, hard, slow, laborious process, but she’s working on it.  And as for Brown Eyes, he’s doing the same thing.  And I’m sure it’s long and hard and slow and laborious.  And sometimes it hurts.  Correction, it hurts a lot.  Having your heart ripped from your chest and then stuffed back in haphazardly, in the attempting to rearrange that haphazardly placed heart, and in trying to deal with all those Issues all at the same time..it hurts.  Even for a little girl with bright green eyes and a feisty personality.

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