Do you remember watching Winnie the Pooh last week when you were a kid? Piglet was always one of my favorites; he/she/it was always so positive and plucky. Yes, “plucky” is definitely a great way to describe Piglet. Here’s the thing; at the moment I am a cross between Eeyore and Winnie the Pooh as a Little Black Rain Cloud. I’m trying not to let all this car accident stuff get to me, but it’s been a crap week. And it’s only Wednesday. Morning. I spent all-together too much time the last two days with my back and neck packed in ice feeling sorry for myself. I keep trying to tell myself that I’m lucky I wasn’t hurt too badly. I’m lucky my car is fixable. I’m lucky that I was able to walk away from such a terrible accident. Even so, sometimes a girl needs a good cry and a good rant.
I’ve had my rant; I’ve had my cry, perhaps a bit more of a cry than I’d care to admit. And honestly I feel pretty silly announcing to the Internet that I did, in fact, break down in tears over something so insignificant as a car.
I dropped out of my race yesterday. I have a bulgy disk in my neck and strained tendons up and down my spine… I’m not going to be running at all for 6-8 weeks. My doc told me that even walking a half-marathon was out of the question.
My tax return is being used to pay my insurance deductible instead of buying a plane ticket to Hawaii as initially planned.
I have a doctor’s appointment every day this week, and three or four scheduled for next week. My doc is a half hour away through the worst traffic in the state. I hate driving in traffic; I keep imagining some wacko driver squashing me on the freeway. Needless to say, just getting to my appointments is a white-knuckle affair in and of itself.
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Reading over this, I sound like a whiny little punk. Believe me, I am aware. I am not asking for sympathy or anything like that. I am simply trying to make myself a list of everything that is Sucking In My Life so I can have a visual that will help me come to grips (again) with the fact that really? this isn’t so bad. I’m just having a really tough week. Please forgive my crankiness.
There. It’s out. Now I can hit “publish” and let this all go. Because, as we all know, what is a blog if not a forum for a fantastic vent every now and again.
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Heidi, my love, nobody thinks you are whiny for being upset that a) your car is totalled b) your back is messed up c) you are in pain and d) all of this is costing you money as well as time and inconvenience. That’s not being whiny, trust me! Spoil yourself, indulge in a little poutiness, and know that it will get better in a little while.
Comment by Kiersten 2008 April 16 @ 8:28 amYou deserve a good whine or twelve! I would be whining my tushy off having gone what you are in the middle of! I am sorry to hear about your race. I know and understand your frustration there.
Comment by Tiburon 2008 April 16 @ 9:31 amHeidi, cry all you want…and then some! You have been through A LOT this week! I can’t even imagine what it would be like to have just been in a terrible car accident by some punk who stole a car then totals yours, THEN having to deal with the back pains and injuries and costs and what not that all comes with it! And it all comes right before your big run which we all know you have been working your cute little butt off for for weeks now! You’ve been through a lot and I think you should cry away! You are amazing Heidi and I think you should cry, eat ice cream and just do whatever makes you feel better right now. You deserve it! I love ya tons and I am just so, so grateful that you are okay after all that. Like I said before…YOU ARE AMAZING heidikins!!!
Comment by Vanessa Christensen 2008 April 16 @ 9:38 amI would totally be crying over all of this… And then some. Raving, ranting, and whining up a storm, too! You are handling it as well as can be, and a bit of crying and stress is totally normal, if not what anyone would want.
I hope that you feel better both physically and emotionally soon – and your cute little car feels better as well!
PS. Chocolate… Lots and lots of chocolate. That’s what THIS semi-doctor prescribes!
Comment by Z 2008 April 16 @ 9:58 amSo sorry you had to pull out of the race. And no, you’re not being whiny – what has happened would get most people down. Rant and vent all you want woman! It’s YOUR blog! Feel better…
Comment by Leslie 2008 April 16 @ 10:10 amPeople have cried for much less, and I’ll argue that even they are justified in their crying. Sometimes having a good cry and a good rant is the only way to come to terms with something that, when you’ll look back on it in the future, won’t seem as big of a deal. But that doesn’t mean it’s not a big deal now.
Comment by Sra 2008 April 16 @ 10:37 amI would have cried over my car and it is a 1997 Cavalier with 157,000 miles on it.
Crying is just my release and my non crying husband sometimes gets freaked out by my crying. There are moments when there is nothing besides crying that makes me feel better.
HUGS!
Comment by Stephanie 2008 April 16 @ 10:49 amif this is whiny Heidi, trust me, it’s not that bad. Plus, you deserve to be upset! Vent away, girlfriend. We love you! Feel better xoxo
Comment by janet 2008 April 16 @ 10:54 amYou don’t sound whiny at all – you’ve had one heck of a shock, and you need to take care of yourself. There will be plenty of time to get back into the training. Hugs to you Heidi!
Comment by alyndabear 2008 April 16 @ 11:29 amOh Piglet is my favourite too, and not only because he’s pink:)
Of course you should rant and whine about this – I do too at the moment and I haven’t even been involved in such a scary, horrible thing like your accident – it is therapeutic! And I don’t know what it is with these bad issues, they’re always always a-l-w-a-y-s followed by more bad news, in one form or other, sigh. And all we can do is try and hold on to the notion that it’s the hardships that makes us stronger and hopefully more insightful as humans, and not the la-di-da lightweight days.
It was you who tipped me about Viktor Frankl, I hope you can turn to some of his thoughts now…
Best!
Comment by Pia 2008 April 16 @ 11:33 amYou were going to come to Hawaii too??….Now I’m going to cry!! Hang in there Heidi, we’re thinking of ya!
Comment by Amy 2008 April 16 @ 1:56 pmYes, sometimes we bloggers need a little space to vent. Hope life takes a turn for the better!
Comment by Larissa 2008 April 16 @ 5:17 pmI don’t think you are being whiny, what happened to you was horrible but you’ll make it through. Besides, being Eeoyre is my job.
Comment by Sarakastic 2008 April 16 @ 6:57 pmYes, you were “lucky”, it could have been so much worse, blah blah blah. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t feel bad about having such a shitty situation dropped in your lap through NO fault of your own. I cried after my last accident, which was VERY minor and totally my fault. In fact, I cry inside every time I drive in the summer, since after that accident my air conditioning stopped working.
i’m sorry you’re in pain, sorry you had to give up the race, sorry about everything. If you want to vent more, email me!!
Comment by Operation Pink Herring 2008 April 16 @ 7:46 pmIt’s completely normal and OK to cry. It was a traumatic accident even though you walked away safely. It’s going to take time to be comfortable in a car again.
I’m so sorry about the race. I know how hard you’ve been working.
Comment by Molly 2008 April 17 @ 6:48 amYou may cry
And even though you didn’t ask for sympathy – I’m going to go ahead and give it to you my poor friend. I think the suckiest part is the race! You worked so hard! I hereby declare that I will run the August Provo Hobble Creek Half with you. So let it it written…
Comment by Andrea 2008 April 17 @ 7:00 amThat whiplash is more painful than it seems, but you have been through a major accident, as evidenced by the prognosis from your doc! Send me your address and I’ll send you some cheery flowers or something! There will be other marathons. You can definitely perform well in them. So, don’t give up!
Comment by Jen 2008 April 17 @ 7:12 amOh hon, I’m so sorry this all just stinks and you need a BIG hug.
Comment by Nic 2008 April 17 @ 7:28 amaw heidi, you are totally allowed to cry and whine, i know i would!
hope you feel better soon! sending lots of hugs your way
Comment by katelin 2008 April 17 @ 3:28 pmhow could you NOT be cranky after all of that? i don’t blame you in the least!
i hope you have some sunshine in your world soon
Comment by Michelle & the City 2008 April 18 @ 6:58 amI hope you are feeling better today, babe.
There WILL be another half-mara in your future!
(Maybe a half-marathon IN Hawaii?)
Comment by Laurel 2008 April 18 @ 12:18 pmWould you have been opposed to being pushed through that half marathon in an adult stroller? Because I would have done that for you!!
Comment by Britt 2008 April 19 @ 9:07 pmYou don’t sound like a “whiny little punk” at all; in fact what you’re going through sounds horrible. I hope all that doctor attention does the job.
Last year I had to cancel a trip to Sydney because of my broken heel so I sympathise very much with the cancelled trip to Hawaii. And I’m not a huge fan of, oh, running, but it really sucks you can’t do your half-marathon either.
Comment by Allie 2008 April 20 @ 2:45 pmOh no chica! Cry and vent all you want. We know you were really looking forward to that race. I’m sure things will look up soon
Comment by Margarita 2008 April 22 @ 7:29 am